new life~

it's been 1 and a half month of work over here... so far everything is all right... just that most of the things are all by myself... which i'm not that use to at first... coping to it now... sometimes the word lonely just couldn't leave me alone...

basically, life over here is work eat and sleep~ kinda dull and boring... hah:) which reminds me all work and no play makes joanne a dull girl... lols^^ anyway, got quite a few cute lil students here... they're so sweet and lovely... feel like hugging them... lols:)

last week, mum dad n sis came to kl, so we did some shoppings... now i'll have to wait for another month to be back in ipoh again... miss the food there... laksa, pan mee, prawn mee, chicken kuey tiow... gosh~ so much nice food... though so, i found quite a lot of nice food here too... hehe:) n tat's the reason i'm gaining weight...

watch a movie yesterday... quite nice indeed... about a story where it says not all love are fireworks... sometimes, love comes softly~ so sweet... it comes when we all didn't realize...

phew, kinda miss home sometimes, missing loads of people and many things as well... wishing all of us are doing well~ gonna sign off from here^^ nitez~ tata^^ miss ya~

random

dropping by... just felt like it ^^ cuz i've been kinda cryin for almost an hour for watching rosy business... nice drama~

went shopping the other day, was at padini concept store trying out some stuffs with sis...

had baskin robbins ice-cream after that... *thumbs up* too full after tat... love the choc mousse royal... hehe:)

and yes! got the last book finally... anyway, i'm still stuck in eclipse... long left edward~ hah:)


okay, josephine came bac, so we went to "josephine bistro and cafe" tis late noon with jo... i was kinda providing some updates for her... uh yes, went to oldtown with dear teacher and a fren the other day... started to miss the good old days again!! hah:)


overall it's nice i would say... love the heart on my mocha >3


yeah, one more thing, me, sim, huli & boey went to black canyon for lunch... and we actually chat there for 3 hours... gosh!! so, waitin for jialing to b bac and chat again... and tung, can u pls come back?? leave your guy in kk for a while ok?? i know u're excited... lols:) (dun laugh if u're readin tis, i know u'll be high again) besides, did went mcd with ykheng and jiayee... cuz we're bored... and i met mei lai mei ling there... chat again!! been a long time din meet with them ady... met nicholas too today... met who else? lols:) i cant rmb... erm, went riverfront with another gang of frens as well on sunday... one more time with family today... hah:)

anyway, gotta go to bed now... and again, i haven even pack, havta wake up early tomoro~ nite nite^^ tata~

Amazing!!! read and think...

To love your job but don't love your company
Because you may not know when your company stops loving you

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Without your involvemet you can't succeed

With your involvement you can't fail

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The happiest people do not necessarily have the best of all

They simply appreciate what they find on their way

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Write your sad times in sand
Write your good times in stone

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Dream of what you most enjoy

Go where you want to go

Be whom you want to be

You have but one life

To achieve what you want to achieve

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To find on your way

Enough luck to remain happy

Enough challenges to become strong

Enough grief to remain human

Enough hope to be happy

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What is the secret of SUCCESS...?

"RIGHT DECISIONS"

How do you make the RIGHT DESICIONS...?

"EXPERIENCE"

How do you get EXPERIENCE...?

"WRONG DECISIONS"

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It's better to lose your ego to the one you love

than

To lose the one you love because of ego

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Forget what's gone
Leave what's behind you
Your failures and your pain

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If you know the strength and patience

Welcome the company of trees

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The day, water, sun, moon, night-
I do not have to purchse these things with money

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Easy to say we love

Difficult to demonstrate it everyday

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Easy to judge the errrors of others

Difficult to recognize our own errors

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I do not count the hours i spend in wandering by the sea

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You are not responsible for what people think about you

But you are responsible for what you give them to think about you

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A man is lucky if he is the first love of a woman

A woman is lucky if she is the last love of a man

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Behind every successful man
There is an untold pain in his heart

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One today is worth two tomorrows

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Don't make promise when you are in JOY.
Don't reply when you are SAD.
Don't take decisions when you are ANGRY.
Think twice, Act wise.

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Easy to receive

Difficult to give

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w/out "essay" post

no "essays" tis post, just few randomly picked photos :p

went parade (forgotten which day), after lunch at momo, had a long chat there...

after havin an expensive lunch tis noon, 3 dishes & a noodle, $170, which gave me a shock... hehe:)

mum's birthday today... so i baked tis for her... not well baked thou... had a tiny lil party, no pictures (sorry) cuz the randomly taken photos are terror!! hehe:) so, party's "fault" which made me eating non-stop from 5pm till 11pm...

anyway, drove to pj, taught, n drove back to ipoh yesterday... dad accoms... real tiring day!! well, waiting for June... cuz there'll be a trip! hoorays~ (uh, hopefully i can go...)

till then, good night for now~ ZzzZzZzzzz^^

a start of somethin new~

here i go again... a short one!!

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went "yum cha" just now, with ex-schoolmates/prefects i would say... hehe:) kinda bored thou, not much updates or gossips from them <> but i guess better than growing mushrooms at home... *winks*

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okay, gonna start somethin new tomoro... goin to kl to replace some classes... hopefully it'll be nice!! and do wish me luck for comin friday... another important thing to go>>>

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well, have to go and take a quick shower now as it is really hot... the 4th time i'm takin a shower today... and i have to start packing for tomoro's trip already... hah:)

bubbye~

lovely one!!

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who i am when i am with you...

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No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry...

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Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have...
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A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart...

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The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them...

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Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile...

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To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world...

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Don't waste your time on someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you...
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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful...

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Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened...

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There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around...
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Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you...

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Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to...

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~WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON~

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-saturday night out-

it's late now and i'm not sleeping... hehe:)

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went out with tung just now... we actualy went to jusco for some mother's day presents... went to this "face shop" again to get somethin for my mum... tat reminds me wat tung is telling me the other day regarding the new face for face shop... hah:) the korean guy!! :P

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jusco is realy crowded today... mayb it's been a long time i din go out on saturday nights... yet it's so jam... every1 is horning non stop... was like some holidays or wat... felt like cny period... lol:) n v talked bout next year's cny... it falls on 14th Feb, valentine's day... hehe:)

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went to mcd for supper after tat... decided to drive thru as it's kinda late yet again, crowded!! so v actualy drove thru 3 times!!! guess wat? just for the foc sundae & foc apple pie... even tat fella can recognise us... askin, "eh, lagi mari ar?" "u lagi?" lols, i know it's silly funny and stupid... but v enjoyed ourselves laughin out tonite...

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we bought this much food after 3 rounds at drive thru...

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well, my finger is aching a lot out of a sudden without reasons... it's swollen... and it's turning black in color now... yet the surface was like waxed and i cant even touch as it hurts... wonder wat is wrong with my finger... even the hair on my finger is standing straight right upwards... why are all weird things happening to me always? i do wonder...

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okayz, gonna sign off from here... good night~ tata^^

Happy Mother's Day... love u loads mum~

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problems!!

everytime i got a job, there will be lot of problems popping up...

a thousand problems i couldnt list them out...

this is the third time now, for sure there are arguments between me and family or even friends...

i don't wish tat happens, but sad to say, it does...

well, i'm very sorry to you guys that i "created and composed" different kind of problems always, i know i am kinda stupid and coward at times...

i was like alarmed the world i'm looking for a job... making people around me worrying... i truly appreciate the help, love and care given... realy thanks a lot!!

i know it's time to stand, so that they won't be overworrying about me always... sorry for the worries and thanks for the care... love you all~

seminar

managed to get bus ticket last minute, so i'm back ytd nite... hehe:)

well, seminar is very good indeed, get to learn a lot!! kinda exhausted thou 2 days of 8 hours non-stop with only 2 tea breaks and lunch... woke up at 6am on monday morning for seminar... yet insomnia... stayed in federal hotel on monday nite... cant even sleep tat nite... kept wakin up once i've dozed off...

went sg wang to spend/waste some time and pavillion for dinner~ at last, get myself pair of flip flop in pavillion... cant manage to go with heels anymore, yet quite a long journey to walk back to federal... oh yes, morning, aunt brought me for breakfast, the wan tan mee is very nice... hehe:) uh, to calculate actualy, spent few hundreds on piano books... rm239 on teaching book & rm119 on love song book... bout a thousand spent tis seminar...

back in ipoh, went out to meet my frens tis noon... later, ended up in jusco... saw tis jic kie "the perverted guy" and kishen... wanted to say hi and they're running away... damn bad!! by the way, was so tired i cant wake up tis morning, rise only at 12pm... lols~ gonna wake up at 6am again startin tomoro~

"the lusty month of may"

just came home... after a quick shower, i started blogging here... haha:) because i don't know what to do now... boring days~

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went breakfast with uncles and aunties tis morning, they came back from kl... after that went home to pack my stuffs, yet i'm not done with packing yet... haih... losing concentration these few days... wanted to get shampoo, i got my phone instead... going for a seminar in kl tomorrow... and i don't know which day of the week i'll be comin back... wanted to come back tuesday right after the seminar but then the evening slot bus tickets hold out already... so not sure yet... poor thing~

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evening we had steamboat together... pretty nice as in i made myself like waste bin, threw lotsa food into my stomach... omg... as usual, chit chat... later at night, we had beer... and my tummy kinda not feeling well now, cause of the beer i guess...

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unhappy with my anklet... broken and it lost by itself... went missing now... kinda not use to it cause usually everytime i take a step or make some movements, the tiny bell will make some sound... now it's so quiet and silent... how i wish there's an anklet around my ankle again... and again my toe bleed yesterday, the last time it bleed was the 1st day and the last day of cny... and i actualy went to the emergency unit on the 1st day of cny... lols:) silly!!

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well, it's now second day of may... it's May, it's gay... it's mad, it's wild... that darling month when everyone throws self control away~ and what am i doing? ---... searching for a job~ hehe:)

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lovely day~

went back to central ballet to get my pay today... hehe:) well, played for the ballet rehearsals and exams for the year 2009, 3 rehearsals and 3 exam days... very satisfied with the pay... besides, i gave the principal some music lessons, tat adds up my pay too... hehe:)

actualy, besides my pay, i did enjoy playing for the lil girls very much... they're so lovely dancing:) it's hard to explain tat kind of satisfaction... when u played well and they danced well... awrhh... splendid!! i'm very happy the principal did appreciate my playing n teaching very much... she even gave me a bouquet of pink roses!! felt damn good and happy today~

anyway, i came across some nice quotes:

- live like you'll die tomorrow

- there's no cure for love, but to love more!!

- words can heal and hurt...

i don't like me!

why?

why??

and why???


i know i'm asking lotsa whys but why?
eveything happens for a reason...
but can someone just tell me why they're happening?
everything seems so easy,
and yet everything is actually so hard...

it's just another boring day of mine,
and my mind went wild and ended up no where,
it landed here...
asking WHY...?
and yes, i am waiting and i am hoping and i am yearning...


"IF"s...
"SHOULD HAVE"s...


"if i knew this is how it'll end up, i should have not started it..."


'GHOST ^^'
it's really so touching...

i've hungered for your love and touch...
again, why so??


okay, hoping everything starts well and ends well...
for certain things, hoping that it started and *will never end*...

random~

ballet exams ended... means i've done my part playing for those cute lil girls... hehe:) dun hav to feel nervous anymore... anyway, i saw a very cute handsome lil boy in ballet class last saturday... omg! he's so cool!! hah:)

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phone giving me problems again... the sim card is all right now, wi-fi's turn, after tat it's bluetooth's turn... wat's next?? i'm up for it...:p

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uh, i'm havin a very bad, i consider it toothache, gums aching seriously and tat makes my tooth aches and my entire mouth is aching now... cant chew properly... so basically i just swallow wat i take... sometimes, it's so pain i wanted to shout and yell!!

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well, i pass by starbucks just now... the environment is so lovely... dim lightings all around... imagine, dim lights, with instrumental music or some love songs, spice it up with a cup of hot mocha and be around with your loved ones... awhh... it's just so gorgeous!! and i pass by indulgence tis afternoon, there were very nice balloons out there... colours are sweet pale pink and black... how nice...

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okay, wat i yearn for now is --- a job i desire at a place i would like... looking back, it's now end of april, if things dint change, i'm suppose to move in to the campus's accom hall next tuesday... well, things wouldnt not change isn't it? so make the changes worth... hehe:) uhm, 5 more days to May... phew!! time flies... cherish every moment people... hehe:) till then, c ya...

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a trip to kl:)

just came back from kl... tiring!! uhm, overall nice trip but then particularly from my point of view, not realy... cuz of certain stuffs... not gonna mention here, but i'll keep going>>

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went on saturday nite, right after my ballet rehearsal, i just had a quick dinner in the car... tis time, i was kinda smart, hah:) i lead the way to uncle's house in shah alam... kinda pressure cuz i can make no wrong turnings or exits... so we actualy reached safely... ^^

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early sunday morning, aunt brought me to levi's warehouse sales... happie with it... cuz i got myself 3 tops and 1 jeans... love the stuffs i got very much:) thou few hundreds spent... after lunch, went to sunway... shopping again! hehe:) bought nothin cuz i'm satisfied with the morning hunt...

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dinner time - yummie!! we had klang bak kut teh... kinda reunion, 4 families having together... for the 1st time, i actualy love the meat... lols:) usually i'm "vegetarian" when it comes to bak kut teh... i'll only take the soup but tis is nice... uh, but then uncle says jb bak kut teh is even yummier... here i am, hungry again when i thought of it :p

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went to usj area to do somethin tis noon, head back to ipoh around evening time... too bad it's after 5pm... so kinda jam... oh ya, listen to a few very loving songs on the way back, which made me happy yet sad, hoping yet losing hope at the same time... okay, so music controls huh?

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anyway, it's SUPER HOTTT!!! same goes to kl & ipoh... oh my!! a trip to genting or camerons will be lovely... on the way back, dad suggested tat we go genting, too bad sisters having school tomorrow...

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back to my phone, now that it can read the sim card, the wi-fi is not working at all!! it just couldn't be perfect... haih... can't the phone just stop being naughty?? by the way, i can see no stars in the lonely sky tonite... hopefully it'll rain... so tat i can have a good sleep:) miss u guys anyways... muax:)

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ain't nice mood~

my phone is makin me nuts... just don't know why it is always "no network coverage" or "no access to network"... tis made me missed all the important incoming phone calls and texts... and i cant text or call when i need to... tis is spoiling my mood!!

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oh yes, having the last ballet rehearsal tomorrow... exams will be on wednesday thursday and friday... kinda nervous... anyway, will do my best...

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so gonna go to kl once again tomoro... it's like goin to kl every 2 weeks since last month... with fear everytime, cuz m goin for some important stuffs... so tis time, it's another important task... wish me luck and all the best would ya?

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okay, i know i'm kind of crapping alrdy... moodless... gonna sign off from here... bye peepz:)

what does my bday mean?

What Does My Birthday Mean:

You often have problem in promoting yourself,

just because you don't know how to express your true self...

On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why

people misunderstand you...

until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality.

Opposite sex finds you

mysterious and worth searching.

Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.

Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over.

Your first love lasts forever...

You are responsible to the feeling of your lover.

The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

Fill in my blanks for me...

i end up here... Cause -i don't know who or what to talk to... there are a lot in me but i just couldn't voice them out... i don't like this feeling... sometimes, i felt released, sometimes stressed, even blank... why so? there are times i wanted to cry out so much, but i have to hold my tears... i don't wanna let myself fall so easily... it's tough u know...

felt tat i've lost somethin... there's somethin lacking in me... excitements of life!! passion... goals~

but, for i know...

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about

*CREATING YOURSELF*...

out of a sudden, i wanted to express somethin...

i love u dad & mum, sis as well...

i miss u my dear friends, besties, dearies and all...

anyway, i came across this... at least somethin to push me...


Dream...
as you dream
remember that only
you can make your
dreams come true.

Reach...

as you reach

remember that success takes time,

dedication, and sometimes,

a little disappointment.

Believe...

as you believe

you will find reaching gets easier

setbacks more manageable

Life becomes more meaningful.

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> D R E A M

> R E A C H

> B E L I E V E

> A C H I E V E

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Lil bitterness of my day...

kinda moody today... a lil bitterness in me>> just without specific reasons...

anyway, had my 2nd ballet rehearsal tis morning... it was again, great!! played some nutcracker suite for the improvisation part... had brunch there, ham & egg sandwiches~ long time din eat tat alrdy... nice!!

uh, had a long long chat with dad, mum, aunties & uncles yesterday, i guess bout 12 hours huh... noon till midnite... discussed bout studies and they bring up love as well... shared our point of views...

sTuDiEs - well, roughly, i have somethin in mind now... regarding future... i guess i'll probably take tat path... heart and mind started uniting now... still, i'm worried... for i'll regret... so i need another few days or mayb a week to have it decided... finally i see lights at the end of the tunnel...

LoVe - hmm, tis is funny... eventually, when i talk bout future, families will slowly glide the topic into love life, money wise and stuffs... kinda like to listen to their experiences... quite a lot to write so i'll not... just conclude a lil here, it's hard to hold feelings... sweet thou~

i love my w705, nice phone... busy transfering songs into it tis late noon...

supports needed for what i'm doing now... for choosing the best path... yes, every path is correct, there's no wrong... just that the difference is...

how u take that journey and how u walk it out...

*~shine~*

thou there are lotsa stars in the sky, but still, try to shine your best...

a new darl~

i've got a new phone!! it's W 705... i got the silver one cuz i just don't like the red one... love my phone very much... and there's wi-fi, so the best thing - i don't have to take turns to go online... and my sis & i did somethin silly, we chat via msn messenger thou we're just sitting next to each other... anyway, we're always crazy... besides, i can always listen to songs tat i loved... yet there's sens me, kinda interesting... btw, battery ran flat, haven

realy gone into it yet...

tat's the happiest thing so far, in these few weeks...

back to joanne's... uh, diverging paths, these few questions kept on popping up...

• shall i go for a degree? or work and at the same time get my ftcl?
• if i'm goin for degree, classical or contemporary? my heart prefers classical but my mind says contemporary...
• dad, mum and my teacher suggested i go for a-levels instead of foundation, cuz foundation requirements is grade 3 and i'm havin a ltcl diploma... but i'm not so interested in studies... i prefer doin somethin musical wise...

well, i'm waiting for my heart and mind to unite anyway... i guess they'll unite soon...

yeah, just came back from oldtown, had a chat with carmen... she has got a new laptop, she gonna study soon... just love to spend time together, do some flashbacks... hehe:)

Seminars!!! edward ho's seminar in kl, federal hotel... i'm in!! it's in May... anticipating~~~ i've missed his seminar last 2 years, finally i can go tis year... i guess i'll gain a lot in tis comin seminar...

i need PaSsIoN SuPpOrT WILL . . . i just need that *sparkle* in me...

Somehow, i just feel nice today... may the same goes to somebody... :p